Also..

Kind of late, but I got my Andrew Bird Tickets a few days ago for his show in March. 

Hazzah! :)

This band.

is great.

Music on my Mind.

This song and this entire album.

blockhead.

This man is a fucking genius: (And I can't wait until March when I get to see him live. So fucking excited, from what I've seen he's insane live.)

andrew bird.

I truly believe that in time this band will get it's due. So talented. And also from Austin. They should be recording a new album in less than a month, couldn't be more excited to hear it. (This video is a bunch of live songs.)

brazos.

This band is a recent favorite. I've always had them on my ipod and I finally got around to really listening to them.

t.v. on the radio.

His voice is so sexy. This is my favorite song off Plastic Beach.

gorillaz.

This group is insanly cool. I didn't like them at first, but once you get into what they do it's so inspiring. (that. was. a. profound. sentence.)

the decemberists.

Lastly...

It's winter, come on.

frank sinatra.

Boyz.

Guys are something.


Some of them are assholes.


Some of them are frustrating assholes.


Some of them are just frustrating.


Where the F are the decent ones hiding?

M-e.

happy.

Dream.

My dream is to..

..move out of this house

...find a nice one bedroom apartment

....get a job, preferably not a shitty one

.....decorate the space that is finally mine to do what I will with it

......go back to school ready to concentrate and do well

.......have a big enough space where I can enjoy my work more and be able to concentrate

........sell my art

.........be content with my life and happy that I'm capable of being on my own

That's what I want, but for now I'll be content with what I have.

Ra Ra Re-mix.

This song and this remix. Damn.

Great Finds.

Yesterday I went on a train ride with a friend and her family to Burnet, Texas. I found this at an antique store there:

This is actually a FedEx pin from the 80's (evidently they had a "Don't Panic" campaign) ...t's still the famous words written on the front of The Guide.

(If you don't know, I am obsessed with The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy. I love me some space and I also love me some british humor. It is my ultimate book.)


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Also, when shopping today at the mall I got this fucking awesome Lucky Brand bag on sale. (Originally 230 and I got it for 50. Man, if that's not bargain shopping I don't know what is.)

Also also, riding a train is pretty cool.

Star Wars.

I've been working on it for two days now. This picture's kinda weird...

But I'm likin' it.

New Project.

I'll be drawing this in colored pencil on black illustration board.

I think it will turn out nice.

I will also be selling it, so that will be nice as well.

Life: Frustration.

It's true. This life we all live is so frustrating.


The way I see it being happy is the key to a successful life. And being happy can be one of the most difficult things to accomplish. Though I am young, as a person who has been very happy and also very unhappy I believe I can vouch for this.


The ability to look at yourself and the world as an outside observer is only a contributor to the problem of being happy. And I don't mean to just look at yourself from another person's point of view, I mean above that, a completely different entity looking down on earth with no earthly ideas. When you do this you see that people are very predictable, very unoriginal. Complete individuality of all the things that make up a person and who they are is of course completely impossible, there will always be some shared characteristic with someone else, but the realization of this is not only depressing but very eye opening which is in turn is even more depressing. We humans live a very sad comedy.


I always want to know why people do things. Every person's code (of action, and reasoning and philosophy) is very different from the next persons. It's difficult to really understand who people are.


I don't know if that made sense but, this is the stuff I think about constantly.

Money, it's a hit.

Money - Pink Floyd

Fuck you.

I'm happy.

Free People Boutique

(click it.)

I want EVERYTHING.

Also.

I like black pants.




               ...fuck jeans.

Random Assortment of Thoughts.

It's not fun being lonely.

I've found that when I actually act the way I want to, it might seem strange to some people.

Hell, I'm pretty fucking weird. 

And I don't want to be the person who everyone thinks is popular. I don't want to be "that person". I like who I am,  I like those moments when that person truly shows. It makes me happy.

And It's not about who you know or the friends you have, it's about being happy with who you are.

And I don't need a relationship to tell me I'm worth shit to someone. It might seem like that sometimes, but it's ok to be on my own because my time is my own and I can accomplish what I want to. And possibly the right person will come along eventually. 

T.V. on the Radio.

Question (3)

It's not very much fun getting fucked with, now is it?

Ain't no Slutty Rats.

I'm now obsessed with this song.


Concert in 3 days.

The lyrics are awesome.

There's no work in walking in and it fueled the talk
I would grab my shoes and then away I'd walk
through all the stubborn beauty I'd start at dawn
until the sun had fully stopped never walking away from
just a way to pull apart, dehydrate back into minerals
a lifelong walk to the same exact spot
carbon's anniversary
the parting of the sensory
old, old news to read
the parting of the sensory

who the hell made you the boss
we placed our ships in all the right spots but still lost
any shit-head who had ever walked
could take the ship and do a much finer job
these fit like clothes made out of wasps
aww, fuck it, i guess i lost

the parting of the sensory
carbon's anniversary
just part of the game if you please
carbon's anniversary

who the hell made you the boss
if you say what to do i know when not to stop
if you were the ship, who would ever get on
the weather changed for the worst
it came down on us like it had been rehearsed
i highly hope that change will surely come
it'd be awful for most but really good for some
and for your trip to the exact same spot
we'd pull the trigger but we forgot to cock every single shot
oh, fuck it, i guess we lost.
 
someday you will die and somehow something's gonna steal your carbon.
someday you will die and somehow something's gonna steal your carbon.
someday you will die somehow and something's gonna steal your carbon.
someday you will die and someone's or something's will steal your carbon.
someday something will die and somehow you'll figure out how
often you will die somehow and something's gonna steal your carbon.
something will die and you'll probably just steal his carbon.

Question (2)

Why is it hard to look at yourself objectively?

I like the Arctic Monkey's newest album.

Well. I think it has a couple good songs on it at least. One of them being this song:

I hope I get to see them again.

Some Days

Are just shitty days. 

You know...


Those days when you find out things you'd rather not have found out about. Those days when everything seems like it's going from "I'm finally getting out of this stupid rut I've been in and things are looking up" to "Wow, things just got a whole lot worse." Those days when you think someone wants to be with you but you find out that they don't care about you the way you want them too. Those days when nothing good seems to be happening for you. Those days when you don't feel like getting anything done because you're scared of failure. Those days when you find out your not exactly the person you want to be. Those days when everything seems to be happening and none of it happening to you.




I just had one of those days.

Cake.

This is my favorite Cake song (as of right now.)

They're coming to Austin in December too. Must somehow acquire money...

Modest Mouse.

My Modest Mouse ticket came in the mail today!

They're going to be great live. Next month is going to be worth it. I had been waiting for them to come to Austin for a show.


A favorite song:

Song

Found this band yesterday, called Time Machine. They sound familiar, but I can't put my finger on where I might have heard them before. But I've been painting to it non stop. 

Skull

This is a watercolor painting I had to do for one of my art classes. It will be from a series of three, all being on different kinds of paper using different mediums. 

I'll upload more as I complete them.

Damn.

My friend showed me this song a few days ago, it's a bit short but I really like it. This video is also pretty cool itself.

Question (1)

Why is it so hard to do what's right sometimes?

This is my tattoo, it's from the Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy. 

I'm in love with that book and have been for a while. It combines two of my favorite things, space and dry humor.

Here's my tattoo on Fuck Yeah Tattoos!

...

There are so many things I'd like to do and accomplish with art. I want to paint so many things and draw so many things and pour myself into my work. I don't understand why my laziness stands in my way. Perhaps it's not laziness but the lack of inspiration. And I know I haven't found my inspiration yet.

But I don't just want to create something that looks nice, I want to create something that makes people think or feel something. I believe that's the hard part. I want to be so inspired by something and so excited about a project that it just creates itself almost.
(I also want to visit museums and emerse myself in other's art, perhaps that is what I am lacking.)

I haven't found it yet, but when I do it will be an exciting time. In the waiting period I suppose I will just practice my technical skills as an artist like what I'm doing in class.